Hello December

Hello December,

Where did you come from December? Weren’t you just here not to long ago? It sure does feel like it to me. I guess not though. I guess it’s really true that December is here. It must be because every where I turn I see Christmas decorations and busy people doing abnormal shopping. Oh December don’t worry I got my shopping done the week before Thanksgiving. I really didn’t want to be out there with everyone this year. It just didn’t thrill me any. Although I did do something shocking Dear December. I went out on Black Friday with my good friend. Yes, seriously I did. It was crazy and probably won’t ever go again but at lease I can say that I did it once before I die.

So December you are here. Lets make it a good one alright????

Sincerely, Me

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Thanksgiving Eve

Here in a while it will be another Thanksgiving.  Over on Facebook people have been doing daily “what I’m thankful for” post.
I’m not into all those things. I mean I have things to be thankful for but I tend to just keep it to myself.
However tonight as I lay here I started thinking about all that I am thankful for. There’s a lot. I won’t list them all because who has the time for all that. I mean we all have got big meals to prepare.
Here are a few that keep popping into my mind the most.
1. My Godson.  This little boy has really help heal parts of my heart and mind. I get so down due to my health but within a few minutes of being with this sweet precious boy I feel so much better. This child means the world to me. I am very thankful to his Godmother. Dear Little Boy Ya-Ya loves you so much.
2. My team of doctors. It took a bit but I now have a really great team of docs that keep me moving forward.  This is something I am very thankful for. If I was still out in California I’m pretty sure I would be dead. My doctors are amazing and I’m so thankful.
3. I am also very thankful for someone that I’m not going to go into details about here. But I’m still so beyond thankful.  This person is not afraid to yell at me when I need to be yellet out.  (They yelled at me just last night and I needed it) They have stuck by my side and I love them very much.

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So many more things I could say but tonight those are the three that are on my mind the most.
Happy Thanksgiving Everyone.

My Mind

Here it is almost 4am and I’ve maybe have slept about a hour. Tonight’s mixture of pain and a mind that won’t quiet down is doing me in.
Uggg…my mind. I am glad that here on earth I am the only one with a lifetime membership to what goes on in there.
We all have things up there in our heads that we wish we could move to a deep dark vault, bury and forget where and what it was. I feel like over fifty percent of mine is that way.
There are things that I need to say to certain people that I just can’t say.  I try and try but I’m frozen in fear. There are feelings I wish I could share. But to many years of having my feelings not matter have taken a toll. A toll that causes those feelings to stay within. To stay with me until the day I close my eyes in death and finally get rest.

Championship

As I sit here watching my sons team warm up for the last time this season, I find myself getting a little teary.
In thirty minutes they will play their championship game. These boys have worked hard this season to get here.
Specially my son.
This season he fought medical set backs as well as football games. Before every game and practice we made sure he had all the medicines he would need in case of certain things. 
He fought hard. Even on days when he wanted to give up he found the strength he needed to keep moving forward.  Not only for himself but for the team.
I am proud of you son. Now go kick some butt!

Championship

As I sit here watching my sons team warm up for the last time this season, I find myself getting a little teary.
In thirty minutes they will play their championship game. These boys have worked hard this season to get here.
Specially my son.
This season he fought medical set backs as well as football games. Before every game and practice we made sure he had all the medicines he would need in case of certain things. 
He fought hard. Even on days when he wanted to give up he found the strength he needed to keep moving forward.  Not only for himself but for the team.
I am proud of you son. Now go kick some butt!

Where’s The Pressure???

Water pressure that is. Where oh where is that little pesky thing we had this time yesterday called water pressure. We don’t have it. In fact no one on our street has it. We all have no clue where it’s gone to or when it will return. We all want it to return.

Earlier I was showering when my husband flushed the toilet. As soon as he flushed all the water in the shower turned off!!! TURNED OFF!!! Then once the flush was complete the shower turned back on.

INSANITY!!!!!!!! WE NEED OUR WATER PRESSURE BACK!!!!!

 

A New Adventure

Starting tomorrow I will be hosting a new blog. I’ve been asked by many to do the blog that I will be starting. I’m excited about this new adventure. But don’t worry this blog will still be my baby. I know that I do not post daily like I did with my previous blog. But there is a reason for that. I don’t want to get burned out. That is why I only post a couple times a week.

If you follow the blog on Facebook this new blog will not be posted on there. If you wish to follow the new blog just let me know and I will send you the information on it.

On that note…It’s time to start bed time routines around here. Good night everyone.

Early Morning

I’ve always liked being up and about before the rest of my family wakes up. I enjoy sitting in the front room by myself. It’s so quiet and peaceful. There’s no footsteps coming down halls, no yelling from bedrooms asking if I know where their shoes are. There’s no fighting from sleepy children who don’t want to get up and get ready for school.No husband asking if I’ve seen his keys. No dogs wanting to go outside.

No, it’s just me and my laptop sitting on the couch. There’s no one or nothing else. This is my time to wake up and figure out the day. It’s my quiet time. My Me time.

 

Is It Over Yet

This has been one of those weeks were you wish you could get into bed, pull the covers over your head and wait for the week to end.
I can’t believe this month is almost over. Its been a hard month for me physically and mentally.  I just don’t know right now if I’m coming or if I’m going.  I feel lost and alone in this world.